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Painted silhouettes on a blank canvas

9 April, 2013 (22:54) | Uncategorized | No comments

As I’ve found through the years, potentially intense situations are more manageable when I preemptively talk about them, to perhaps give a little shape to what lies ahead rather than have it remain a vague amorphous blob on the horizon. I once took a painting class and, much like the effort of painting silhouettes to guide what [...]

Chase life with them in the wind

9 September, 2012 (00:55) | Uncategorized | No comments

April 20 2011. September 2012. I haven’t written in a while. I have witnessed my sister’s marriage, have been to Thailand, joined a hockey club and hit a few balls at Top Golf. Haven’t had the impulse to sit down and put into words all that has passed nor did I have the attention span, [...]

Now while the wait

15 April, 2011 (23:16) | Uncategorized | No comments

Again, from the list of “drafts”. Last year…

We talk about plan, we talk about the future. We wonder what advice we’d have and remember from our Mothers. I was able to ask, and she said “choose your battles wisely.” I have no idea what she means anymore because it seems most battles aren’t of my [...]

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1 March, 2011 (23:00) | Uncategorized | No comments

I haven’t been to this site to write in quite some time, rather to read. And, while reading, I noticed several drafts that were never published (or can’t remember publishing). Whether for feelings of inconsequence or a moment interrupted, they sit waiting.

This was written when Jill was leaving for Bangkok after “all had settled” at home. Diane and I had [...]

Walking Blind

10 January, 2010 (18:53) | Uncategorized | No comments

Though it has been some time since I’ve written, it seems no time has passed since June 25 and September 26. It’s a peculiar event, witnessing death. To be living one moment, sharing space and time with loved ones like a credit card without limit. Then, the stark drop off of inexistence and there’s no [...]

Happy Birthday Mom!

24 July, 2009 (12:42) | Uncategorized | No comments

It’s July 24th. For years and years, we would spend this day pampering mom in celebration of her birthday. We would sing an obnoxious version of happy birthday either by a conference phone call or in person, and would toast to her with a forkful of carrot cake. We would live this day with her [...]

Begonias before Sunset

31 May, 2009 (22:24) | Uncategorized | No comments

(written May 10th, 2009)

The brilliance of Mother’s Day is that it happens every year with such predictability that you can prepare for it – send that card well in advance, design an extra special tribute to the woman who gave you life. Instead, you find yourself lost in a card isle searching for the [...]

I know you, I’ve walked with you once upon a dream

21 May, 2009 (21:43) | Uncategorized | No comments

…I know you. The gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam…

I’m sure Sleeping Beauty had something else in mind when she sang that sweet melody. For my family, it carries a different meaning with a Prince whose gleam is more a permanent glower and whose name does start with “C” but rhymes with [...]

Crossing the river, by feeling the stones

10 May, 2009 (09:16) | Uncategorized | No comments

“To My Mother on Her Special Day.” That was the title of my Mother’s Day post, written just one year ago. I remember that day so well.  Mom was wearing her blue nightgown, and her hair was a bit spiky from a recent hair cut at La Ritz. Dad bought Mom several books-on-tape for Mother’s Day. I [...]

From the Vault

26 April, 2009 (00:02) | Uncategorized | No comments

“There comes a time when you become so far behind in writing about life that you just give up. What’s the point of documentation, of spending valuable moments lost in thought instead of taking in what’s around you? Living in the moment; relishing the day; holding on to every second you can still say, “hey [...]

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