Jill, Erin and Diane have all mentioned our efforts to hold on to moments with Craig. I burn certain moments into my memory, repeating events over and over in my head, hoping to hang on to the details. One such event happened yesterday, during one of many difficult conversations with the palliative care [...]
Craig, I just want you to know that I have been calling people that I have not spoken to in years. I have contacted Dan Hounslow, Andy Arterbery, Aaron Mauterer, Matt Kay, and more… I even had to hunt down their parents to get their numbers! It is a good thing those older generations like [...]
Today was yet another hard discussion. Basically, there’s nothing more that can be done for Craig aside from making him comfortable. So there it is. We’re going to the mountains to have some much needed relaxation and change of scenery.
With all of the new developments, I’ve been thinking a lot about the rotten things brothers and [...]
Like most race car drivers, Danica Patrick has a pit crew. When not getting run over by Ms. Patrick, the pit crew is responsible for topping off liquids, pumping up tires, and, basically, fixing all things that need fixing. The “pitters” have to respond quickly to problems, and adjust with every hurdle, in [...]
(Written around 9pm)
I’m in Craig’s room watching his head lurch forward, tense up, then fall back to the pillow. It’s anyone’s guess whether it’s from hallucinations, which he’s been having more often, or reflex to sudden excruciating pain. I’d like to believe it’s the former but my hunch is the latter — he’s gripping his stomach as I type. They’ve doubled [...]
Quotable moments series, Take 1–
Yesterday:
–The x-ray tech appeared at the door and the four ladies popped up, each murmuring their respective “that’s our cue”. Diane took it one step further by tapping her ovaries while saying “the babies and I will be taking our leave.”
–Craig said, “jeeeeze, Debbie Downers” when the palliative care team left after one [...]
A fifty dollar citation after striking a homeless man with a car… wow! Now that’s fame. A cynical and slightly bitter person might say ol’ Bob, the cruelest of all journalists, should be slapped with a heftier fine – say something in the misdemeanor range. But knowing he has a brain tumor seems to personalize [...]
(I know this is heavy to read, but such is the weight (and wait) of life. It’s in the moment at the least…)
I can’t believe my beautiful brother is dying. I can’t believe my beautiful Mom is dead. I can’t believe all this is actually happening and not some craptastic OK! magazine story. I’m scared of what awaits when it is all over, [...]
First, a post about bunnies, in honor of our friend, Steve, who has requested more ‘light-hearted’ material.
(Read in a Paris Hilton voice): Bunnies are cute, especially fluffy bunnies, with big bushy tails and little bunny teeth. Bunnies don’t complain; they just jump and play and eat lots of carrots. I like white bunnies, but when [...]
As one blazes through life, one come across those, “ummmm, perhaps I ought not to…” moments. The other evening, Jill and I went on a familiar “sodie” run, picking up a quick fix of either Diet Mountain Dew or Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi (very specific). As I waited, a man came up to the window and [...]