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Month: October, 2008

Uh, what now?

31 October, 2008 (10:14) | Uncategorized | 3 comments

I’m sitting in my new Denver apartment listening to men jumping on the roof. Someone forgot to tell me that they were going to be replacing the roof before I moved in :/. Details, details, details. Anyway, I’ve been here since Monday night and am at a loss for what to do with myself now. [...]

And the pain comes in the morning

31 October, 2008 (00:22) | Uncategorized | No comments

I don’t remember much of last night. The details are hard to recover as they blend too homogenously with the nights before–nights of restlessness, sleeplessness, and dreams of Mom and Craig. I remember releasing Sam from his “tent of fury” (he digs and digs as if gold were at the end). I remember Maxie pinning [...]

Denver ‘Lights’ Dancing

30 October, 2008 (22:34) | Uncategorized | No comments

The nights grew long as Craig’s process took hold; inevitably, the day would turn in much before we would, and it’d be “tomorrow” before we’d find some rest. I remember looking out at the twinkling lights from his 31st floor window much like I did when I first “came on duty” back in April. The [...]

Low of all lows

27 October, 2008 (22:37) | Uncategorized | No comments

Just when you think you’ve seen it all, some soul-deprived jackass robs your deceased mom’s identity and goes on a spending spree all the way to North Carolina. While Jill and I were grocery shopping, we received a call from our frantic dad wondering if we’ve purchased items at a department store or on a certain credit [...]

In dreams is where they find me

25 October, 2008 (00:55) | Uncategorized | No comments

(written Wednesday)

I’ve been dreaming more about Craig and my mom of late. There is no rhyme or reason to it, no pattern apart from perhaps a continuance of an earlier thought from the day. Monday night, I dreamt they were fish in a fish tank after spending quite some time watching fake and real fish swim about while waiting at the [...]

Leaving today

22 October, 2008 (12:31) | Uncategorized | No comments

Our cars are packed save that of the kitties and our luggage. Soon, we’ll traverse Kansas’ exciting countryside towards Oklahoma.

…more to come when we find a stopping point from this “go go go”.

~E

 

I always feel like, somebody’s watching me…

21 October, 2008 (11:35) | Uncategorized | 1 comment

Well, we met ’survy” the surveillance man, a.k.a Diane’s neighbor.  Though at first, we thought the cameras belonged to the trusty maintenance man, we’ve now discovered that, nay, they belong to Diane’s new creepy neighbor, who apparently dabbles in Ebay and is worried about the apartment’s clientèle (or something to that effect).  We (Diane and [...]

Check out this link–AMAZING!

21 October, 2008 (11:08) | Uncategorized | 1 comment

Check out this link (also can be found under “Three parts to a Friday” comments):

http://homepage.mac.com/chuckcam/Craig_Jam/iMovieTheater153.html

Make sure you watch it in full. Craig’s best stuff is towards the end. Phenomenal! Our brother was hot (in a sisterly way, of course).

Thanks for the video, Chuck!

~E

Il faut d’abord durer

21 October, 2008 (00:27) | Uncategorized | No comments

This time last month, we were sitting in Craig’s room, enjoying an episode of Rome. Just a few days after, Craig fell into a deep sleep from which he never awoke. Now, almost a month in, I find myself longing for the days of Rome watching, caretaking, and silent conversations. Though nearly [...]

Ten til remains

20 October, 2008 (01:33) | Uncategorized | No comments

Back in the time of chemo, my phone would vibrate with a clever reminder “Chemo time” at ten til 8am and 11pm, when Craig would need his next dose. When Mom was back on oral chemo, she fell into a similar routine.

My phone would continue to vibrate each morning and night even as chemo’s utility [...]

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